10minutes!

27th April 2009 (Monday)

i knew it! i knew it! i knew it!

i came to Australia knowing that the food portion served here is a lot bigger compared to back in Malaysia. i was told and warned that the cold weather will lead to more food consumption. i was adviced to share a single serving with another person because i wont be able to finish one on my own. at the same time, sharing a single portion means paying only half the price, hence, save some money.

now, they are all history.

i've been here close to 3 months.
the weather is changing, the season has changed. it has been raining the past few days and the temperature dropped from 20plus to the lower 10plus degrees. the heater became my best friend, i cant imagine how much the electricity is going to cost me. i dont see the sun as often anymore. even if i do, i don't feel the warmth like i used to. the day became shorter as the sun goes down before 6pm and rises only after 7am.

enough of the weather.

im now used to the food portion. i pay for what i get. i pay AUD$ 10 for a big bowl of wan ton noodle that comes with 6 wanton's and fills my tummy. i've tried nasi lemak in 3 different restaurants and none close to the ones back home. i've been craving for fish head noodle thanks to the weather. my fingers were numb this morning from washing the plates used to place my turkey sandwich. i miss the warm weather so so much! because im on a tight budget and on a mission to reduce the increasing fats on my cheeks, i skipped lunch, but end up eating not only a turkey sandwich for dinner, but also a slice of toast coated with nutella. boy, it was awesome.

i found my favourite BBQ flavoured Thai peanuts. Seated nicely on the shelves of the asian groceries in campus, calling out for me. i gave in and handed AUD$ 3.95 to the storekeeper in return for a big can of BBQ flavoured Thai peanuts. on the first night itself, i think i whacked half of it.

im sitting in my room, with the heater on, telling myself that i should start studying for my test on thursday. oh, and i plan to start on my report which is due in a weeks time. a big piece of home is coming to me this coming Monday. i cant wait. after 3 months, i miss my mom's cooking, i miss my aunts, i miss my family.

i planned to blog about my trip to mornington during easter. take note on the past tense. i think i lost the mood to it. and uploading the pictures simply takes up too much time and effort. i shall do it another day, when i have the mood to do so. my beloved friends back in malaysia, please be patient :)

a loooooooooooong email from the bestie this afternoon made me smile like a little girl in the computer area, located opposite the student services in campus centre. i miss her like crazy and cant wait to speak to her. i miss sitting down with her and talking the hours away. i find it hard to express how i feel through emails. :(
i found out that they had a day trip to genting and maha is leaving for india today.

i made a sudden trip to Chadstone after class to pick up my bridesmaid dress for Ju-Ping's wedding on Mothers Day.

i had a breakdown last thursday due to a horrible test. the stress was killing me literally. i wonder if i made the right choice taking up engineering 2 years back.

i walked away from a relationship that took 2 years to build. and no, im not as normal as i may seem. the surface, is just a surface.
deep down, i still care.
no matter how bad it hurts, it hurts me more to see you hurt yourself.

i told myself that 10minutes is all i'll take to write this post but i guess it took a little longer than i thought.

regrets, it's always there. in the end, it comes down to making the right decision at the right time.

timing. can be right or wrong.
sometimes, you never know what's coming your way.
the email that lead to the beginning of a story...

sometimes, i wonder if i deserve the blessings that God had given me.

i recently asked a friend "where can i get a bible? how much does it cost to get a bible in Australia?"
the next i know, my housemate came knocking on my door and passed me a bible given by that said friend.

'ask and it shall be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. For everyone who asks receives; he who seeks finds; and to him who knocks, the door will be opened.' Matthew 7:7-8.

how true is the statement when it hits bottom ground, things will only get better?

will i graduate in time?
will i pass this unit?

sitting by the sidelines, how does it feel like when you're neither here, nor there.

so many things in mind, what have i achieved so far?

all the questions. where's the answer?


i flipped through the bible and found my peace.
'Do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.'

again, 10minutes is not enough to cover all my thoughts and happenings for the past week.


a random update on my life :)


Cheers.